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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 08:01

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But it wasn’t much.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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So whats the point in blame.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She was in good health!

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Put me off passion for life!!

This is soul school!.

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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So, i spoilt her more .

I could never make a relationship work though!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Comes on , in middle age.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He knew the spot.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As i do to all so called friends.?

It was going to be , some day.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I have no regrets .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And i lived it daily.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

We all went to grammer schools

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Who then, do I blame.?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We were not on the streets..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was seconnd youngest,

Ive learnt so much.

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My family never makes their pension either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was very sick at this time too.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I waited trembling.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I write beautiful poetry .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Was to survive, this bastard.

She loved him until the end.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I couldn’t, believe it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Why did i forgive my father ?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

(And it was in our own minds.)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I think the readers, may guess!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was scared of men, in general

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I said to her

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She wouldn,t have been !

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Would this be the day?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She found it foreign!.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One cannot live in the past .

Im still living with it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I will be 64.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She married twice! .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

When she asked me how she looked .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My life is so biszare .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

All the time i was locked up.

But, we were locked up after school.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

What did i know ?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was 9 years of age.

I don,t even have a pension.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.